I'm sober enough to know blood when I see it

If I had a gun, there's be lots of dead cats.

I would love to take a roadtrip with a loved one. Absolutely no destination. Just to get away and enjoy each other's presence and the beauty in which surrounds us.

If I could turn back time, I simply wouldn't. I would still make mistakes, so what would the point be? I'm trying to grow from my past, and not let it ruin my future. Yes, I struggle with issues of my past, but it's a process. I think your past, present, and future are all a part of you, the impact of them depends on your attitude and soul.

I wish I could sing like an angel.

I wish I could restore broken souls with my smile and open arms.

I wish I could juggle and make balloon animals. Dang, I wanna be a clown. Maybe just for an hour, just so I could see the glow of children's faces.

I wanna write a book about my life and I want to be a motivational speaker. Hah. It might surprise you, but it's true.

I wanna share my testimoy with a congregation or youth group or something. When I say testimony, I more or less mean some deep struggles I've had in my life and how God has been there and helped me through. I feel that God has given me a well powerful story. Not that it's wonderful or anything to be proud of, but I believe that if I share about my life that somehow it could help someone else out or perhaps save someone's life. It's not about me, but about the power God has to rescue us from the pit of sin and shadow of doom.

I lost track of where I was going with this post.

I wanna sleep outside sharing a sleeping bag with someone. Well, two sleeping bags...one on the ground one for coverage.

I wanna watch the sunset with someone. Get lost hiking. Just getting lost in general is rather fun. I mean when you have no deadlines and obligations ya know.

I wanna go to try on ridiculous outfits and take pictures of them and write funny captions.

I wanna make a music video. Not the typical lipsinging type deal. I want to have the song and do like a ah drama. Have different nature scenes tell a story. I could perhaps lip some of the lyrics, but that wouldn't be the focus of what I have in mind. I wanna tell a story of some sort and have it be really moving.

I'm tired. Working on Labor Day. Fun fun. zzzzzzzzzz Hopefully.