Walking with me all this time

When I feel alone, You are there. When I've lost my way, You are there. When I stumble and give up, You are there.

When I wake up, I'm usually afraid of what the day may bring, but You are my peace. You can help me walk on water. Why do I have such little faith in You when You've performed miracles and have overcome all there is? Who am I to doubt the God of the universe? You are more than worthy of my praise. Why do I leave You out to dry? Find me here. Find me reaching out to You. You are amazing. You are my everything.

Proverbs 19:21-22 Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. What a man desires is unfailing love; better to be poor than a liar.

Not entirely sure what this mean, but I think we have in our heads what we want in life, but the Lord knows best. He knows what He wants from us and it's up to us to follow Him. We need to seek Him above and beyond our own desires. He is our refuge and strength. He is our water in a dry and weary land.

Psalm 63:1 O God, You are my God, Earnestly I seek You, my soul thirsts for You, my body yearns for You in a dry and weary land there there is no water.
Have you ever run or played some sort of vigorous physical activity and all you could think of was water? You not only physically yearn and desperately want the water but you emotionally and mentally seek after it. You are faced with an impending need. We cannot live without water.

Lord, be my water. Be my source of life when all I have is death.

The Scars Remain

Leave me be. Let go. Let me drown.

When I went walking, I saw something beautiful. It was the sunset. Its colors were mysterious. It drew me in. Then it disappeared. How could something so beautiful fade away? Darkness filled the sky. The wind crept up and left me shivering. I can't see. I only feel the cold. My body is wasting, wasting away. I am alone. I am nothing.

Rescue me from the depths of this sour heart. Rescue me from this death I have made of myself. Rescue me from the emptiness of my soul and the guilt that grips me. I cannot stand. I crawl and binge on poison. Fill me with life because all I am is death.

Help me to Lose Myself

Philppians 1:21 For me to live is Christ, to die is gain. 

Lord, help me to live for You and You alone. You are my strength. You are my everything. You have rescued me from the depth and pit of despair. I soar beneath Your wings. Help me to let go of my sins and forgive me for forsaking You. Forgive me for going astray. Help me to find myself in You. You are my King. You are the Lord of Lords. 

I praise You for loving me and for taking my place on the cross. Breathe Your life into me. Create in me a pure heart. Help me to let go of my past and see that I'm Your child. 

Help me to cling to You and to resist the Devil. You are worthy of my praise. Yours, Kelly

You Love Me, WHY?!

Lord, You are so beyond measure. I feel at a loss. When I examine myself, all I see is hate. 


I'm so selfish. Everything is about me, me, me. Where are YOU? Where is the light of my life and King of all Kings, Lord of Lords? Why do I leave you out of the equation? I run to everything BUT You! I seek pleasure in things that won't last and will surely fade. 


I want to be adored. I want to be worshiped. I wanna be loved. YOU love me! You love me despite how short I fall. Your love is better than life and Your love is what I need. Help me to believe that. Help me to truly believe that YOU are all I need. I seek to be my own god, but You are to be the Lord of my life. You are my Savior, King, Master, Mighty One, Counselor, Prince of Peace, Heavenly Father, and Almighty Deliverer! 


Why do I believe the lies? Why do I believe that You are not enough?


Remove this thinking. Take it all away. Take my heart, make it Yours. Make me Yours. I'm so empty, fill me with Your Holy Spirit, Your Truths, Your love, Your strength. I need You so desperately.