I just read some more Genesis. If other people can follow the Lord's plan for them and trust Him, why am I struggling so much? I don't know what I'm supposed to do right now. I accepted a position at Geisinger that starts July 11th. I admit, I'm scared as hell, yet I'm really looking forward to it at the same time. 

I wanted to be so many different things growing up. I didn't figure out until sophomore or junior year in high school that I wanted to pursue nursing. Before high school and my freshmen year I wanted to be a counselor/therapist/psychologist. Then, I wanted to be a massage therapist. 

I concluded myself that I didn't have the ability to be a therapist due to my own psych issues. I figured I'd be too much of a hypocrit and grow too emotionally attached and drained. Regarding the massage therapist, my mom told me I wouldn't make enough money or find a job in that field. Also, I couldn't find many programs. My parents wanted me to go to a state school, and none that I found offered a program. 

I have things to be thankful for: 

-Parents: They supported me through a lot. We haven't always seen eye to eye, but we love each other through thick & thin. They are there for me and take care of me. They believe in me, and shower me with their love through big and little ways. My mom got me this cute ceramic pug lol. She also brought me food that I like: cereal, granola, granola bars, apples, and stuff to make chocolate covered pretzels because she knows I enjoy doing that :-)

I'm too distracted to keep typing lol. Nighty night. 

Me in my bridesmaid dress for Heather's wedding.