David Gray song, "Be Mine," is what I'm listening to right now. My second college roommate introduced me to this song. I'm winding down because today I got up around 5:20ish and had a busy day going into the city for the Race for the Cure and then returning to Bloom.
I've felt like life is going faster than I can keep up. I hardly feel like I'm living in the present. I feel life is going so fast, and I haven't accepted some stuff that has happened recently.
My brother and I graduated college, my sister is getting married, Heather is getting married as is Rachel. I interviewed for a job at Geisinger, and I'm returning to HealthSouth on Thursday. I have this NCLEX review course the next three days. My mom has breast cancer. My brother is moving to Texas, and my sister is moving into a house at some point before her wedding in October.
Sometimes I feel happy at some of these things and then other times I get angry, fearful, and am scared. I know in all situations, they provide opportunities of growth and discovery, it's just I worry what the future holds regarding things.
I like the saying or quote or whatever.... time heals all wounds. Yet at the same time, I think to myself, 'Yeah but despite time healing all wounds, doesn't more time bring along more wounds?'
Well, I best be going to bed. Lord, please grant me peace, wisdom, & strength to do Your will. I feel so broken, empty, and at a loss at times. Please deliver me and help me realize my identity in You. Amen.
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